In my search for something, I recently found my way back to the Sugar Quill forums. A bunch of strangers, but I somehow value their opinions far more than my own (I'm too easily influenced). I'm slowly making my way through the Religion thread and I'm absolutely determined that I will get through all one hundred and twenty-five pages of it. I need to know. I'm at a crossroad, or will be at one soon, and ignorance will kill me.

Into my fourth week of working, I've discovered that I'm kind of a workaholic. Not that I enjoy it or anything. But I can't keep still. I can't not do anything. If there's nothing to do, I arrange the files in alphabetical order or pack my desk or reorganise my stationery. I even tried to teach myself Excel, which was a terrible disaster.

About a week ago I taught my sister chem, and it made me realise how much I miss looking at the Periodic Table. I think I shall start looking for people to give tuition to, even though I can probably only start in April. If you know anyone looking for chem, math or phys tuition, please let me know.

Strangers at this blog for the first time, reading this entry, will think I'm some kind of freak.

It is a queer thing when, during the interview, they actually manage to convince you that you do not want the scholarship after all.

Also, I'm gonna go offline after posting this because I realised that after being in front of a com the entire day, I don't intend to spend my nights likewise. Bought a pair of shoes yesterday! It's one of those ugly-at-first-sight shoes. But v nice when worn paired with the appropriate clothing. :)

It's coming to the end of the weekend and I'm recharged again. I had a good weekend. :)

Went for yoga with nee, then we met beek and went swimming and tanning at grandeur. It's so nice when it's all sunny out and you can feel the sun on your skin. The last two times I went swimming the sun was shining so half-heartedly and the water was freezing. After that we hit town. Borders having 30% discount! Bought Undomestic Goddess for like eleven bucks, and a 2006 planner for five bucks. It's white and has cherries all over it. V pretty. I'm v excited abt my Undomestic Goddess. It's the small version, can read in the mrt on my way to work, yay. :) I think I should wait for discounts to buy books. Cos there are so many bookstores and discounts are so frequent, plus my shelf is full of unread books, there's no harm in waiting. After that the three of us shared this huge 650ml tub of Belissimo ice-cream- macadamia, rum&raisin and mint. And next to us there were three other girls sharing this tiny cup of ice-cream. It was a sad sight. Had tribe reunion dinner+sleepover after that! Qt fun. We did the grocery shopping and wrapped dumplings and chopped veg and all that. Realised that Peis is great in the kitchen. And she brought home-made pineapple tarts! Oh, and we cooked the food ourselves. Kind of. In a steamboat and on a teppanyaki plate. Jy and I made v yummy garlic butter cum black pepper chicken! We're creative cooks. :) Today I watched Memoirs of a Geisha with Nic. Came to the conclusion that Zhang Ziyi is v v pretty, esp with her blue-grey eyes in this show. I think army guys are v fast-food hungry ppl. Eh I want pineapple tarts. My mom said she was gonna buy them today but she didn't. She said it's cos she didn't want me to finish them before cny. :( Come to think of it, I've already eaten two whole bottles of it.

SPH interview tmr. Am happy that they finally called. At least if I'm rejected, I'll know it's because of my interview and not because of my writing. Am really unprepared. Am gonna take half day leave and pop by Kinokuniya before that to calm myself.

Hoho I love the weekends. I live for the weekends. Work doesn't suck, exactly, but it's just so utterly boring and monotonous, esp the admin job I'm doing. Filling envelopes, lots of photocopying, typing letters, answering phone calls, keying in data, the works. It's stuff you do on autopilot. Oh and I've gotten a lot of cuts and scratches on my hands cos of all the filing! Haha but it's not so bad lah. At least the pay's decent. I'm gonna save 70% of it for uni. Or uni clothes, to be more precise. Ohhh the NETS hong baos are super super nice! Not hong at all but pale gold and bright gold and so pretty. Met the dancers yesterday. Went to visit our juniors at dance camp! They've improved so much, am v proud of them. And in awe too. Had a v spicy and stomach-churning dinner at Black Canyon cafe, and doused the chilli with Kahlua Latte ice-cream from the Island Creamery. Must go there more. If I actually get into law I'll prob be seeing much more of Serene Centre.

My home com's wonky, so I have to resort to blogging at work. Hoho sneaky. Oh on wed I met Xiaoyan for dinner after work. Ate lots and lots, seriously needed to work out after that. Let's see, we shared this huge three meat pizza and baked penne at Spageddies, then had vanilla creme brulee, raspberry panna cotta and a hot chocolate shooter at Bakerzin. Terribly sinful, I know.

Met beek and jacs after work yest to celebrate shih's birthday. The chocolate mousse cake from Big O was really, really good. And I realised that my working clothes are really formal compared to theirs!

After working for about three weeks, I know where all the trees are going to.

I'm close to finishing To Kill A Mockingbird now and I have to say that it's the best book I've read in ages. It struck something in me in a way few other books have. The first half is a bit draggy and I wanted to slap some of the characters, but after awhile they grew on me and I didn't even mind the way they spoke (think Southern). It also made me more interested in the law profession. Anyway, it's a really good read and I'd recommend anyone who's free to borrow a copy from the library.

I woke up to a bright sunshiny day today, blue sky and all. Makes me happy. :) I love the rain, but the past few days have been more than enough. I treasure the weekends much more now than I'm working. It's been a busy, busy week at work. I'm looking forward to today. My first lesson of yoga, possibly followed by shopping and then baking. Full of possibility. Oh SPH finally called to schedule an interview! But I told them I couldn't make it on Thur cos I have to work. On hindsight I should have just said yes and taken leave. Aiiii.

... and I'm in love with pineapple tarts.

Watched Elizabethtown yesterday. Was a bit apprehensive about watching it cos it received pretty poor ratings but it turned out to be not bad. Not your conventional romantic comedy though. Still, I liked the narration. Loved the soundtrack, the message of the movie, and the road map Kirsten Dunst made for Orlando Bloom. They were really cute in this show.

Saw Nic off at Tekong today. It was quite an experience, though I'm sure a hundred times more for him than for me. I think the tour was largely rose-tinted, from the nice air-conditioned rec room right down to the Western food lunch. Aah well. Hope everything goes well.

The past few days have been emotionally trying. Sometimes it seems as if everything's working against me. Jia Yan said, just be happy. I want to be, but I don't know what to do to get there.

On other notes, work is fine. The girl I'm taking over is v nice, and is unendingly patient even when I made a zillion mistakes and we had to redo the stack of letters three times.

Started work yesterday, then had a class dinner after that. Had work again today, then went had dinner at chompchomp with jy, dee, rah and glen!

Am exhausted, in more ways than one.

Hoho went Popular today with my family! Bought lots of kiddy-themed stationery on a whim. Like Strawberry Shortcake files and Powerpuff pencils and a Buttercup folder! Am v excited about getting organised. It's quite sad.

Happy New Year, all!

Slate wiped clean, let's hope I stick to my resolutions this year. I only have two, but they're possibly the hardest so far.

I miss writing.