... I"m scared. I really am. Pracs terrify me. I can't even begin to describe how I feel.

"Huh, no, I was doing bio just now, now I'm doing math to take a break."

Hoho. The things I say these days.

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Hoho. This amused me greatly.

Ooh yay. Am in a really good mood right now. Bought CCS poker cards! Whee! *happily waves box of brightly-coloured cards around* So lovely. Lovely lovely. Yay yay yay. I'd never use them, though. Too pretty to be touched.

BUT THERE'S NO ERIOL!!! That's a very sad thing indeed. And evil. Horrid. How can there be no Eriol? He's my fave character! Evil yet not evil types, like jy once said, we have the same taste.

"She saw it only as folly, and that folly stamped only by exposure. The want of common discretion, of caution; his going down to Richmond for the whole time of her being at Twickenham; her putting herself in the power of a servant; it was the detection, in short - oh, Fanny! it was the detection, not the offence, which she reprobated!"
- Edmund Bertram, Manfield Park

You know, I feel a bit like Mary Crawford myself.

... So apparently, I scare my sister's friends. And also my little cousins are terrified of me. They seem very shifty in my presence and also when I tell my cousins very politely to please GET OUT OF MY ROOM they do it. Huh. Scaring people is quite fun. I think I might get used to it.

I wonder what my sister's been telling them about me because I've never had the privilege of scaring anyone before. Ever. I think.

Anyway, what does everyone think of this combi? It seems quite perfect to me; I think I'll go for it if I go to NJ: Lit, Math, Physics and Economics.

How can it be sold out? How?

Went to HMV today with Xiaoyan to go find her Anne of Green Gables DVD. And... there was no more stock. But what I'm lamenting more is that I found the Mansfield Park DVD. I did. But it cost something like sixty-five dollars. Gosh, what is the world coming to? I don't go to Orchard for a couple of weeks and *POOF* suddenly I can't afford anything.

But even if it cost twenty, which is what I'm willing to pay, I couldn't have bought it cos I don't have a DVD player at home. :( Sad right? Welcome to my low-technology world. And the VCD is out of stock. Which is even sadder. But on the bright side, that means that Singaporeans do watch/read/like Mansfield Park. Which is good. I have this habit of forcing people to read what I read and watch what I watch so that they'll like what I like. It's extremely annoying, I know, but my theory is that what I like makes me happy, and a happy person likes to spread happiness.

Or something.

Anyway, I know this is a really silly post, but I'm in a silly mood. So there.

I have a problem here.

Being a Virgo and all, I am by nature a very, very indecisive person. Be it concerning a choice of food, clothing, music, or whether or not I should or should not fill-in-the-blank, I have a tough time coming to an eventual decision.

Which is why it's going to be hell trying to choose between NJC and VJC, which is what I've narrowed my choices down to. I've weighed the pros and cons, I've taken uniform, distance, school environment & reputation, subjects offered, friends and all that should matter into consideration, and still I cannot decide. I need to take S papers, because I want to attend an overseas university, but both offer them, so that doesn't make my decision any easier. However, I have a feeling that I'll be happy in whichever JC I end up going to, so all's fine on that level.

What worries me more is the subject combination. I decided not too long ago that I would definitely be taking arts. I'm more inclined that way, and besides there's no point in taking science in JC when I know that it's not going to be of any use in university. But after the prelim results came back I've realised that I cannot count on my humanities and languages. I'm not necessarily horrible at them, but they aren't stable, and I can't rely on them 100% of the time. It's fine now, but what about during the A levels when there'll only be 5 subjects? Then I can't fall back on anything else.

Another thing that made me change my mind is that at the moment I actually enjoy Literature and English; even though they're subjects I can honestly say I do like R+J and some of the unseen prose and poetry pieces. I don't want to grow to hate them, which I know I will if I do badly in them in JC.

So I think I'll play it by ear, see how my results are then decide. At the moment I'm pretty keen on these two combinations:

Arts course: Math C, History, Lit, Econs
Science course: Math C, Physics, Chemistry, Econs

Today frankly sucked.

Firstly, there was the getting back of our English prelim papers. Now, I know that I've been saying that I'd be content just with a distinction, but deep, deep down inside I really wanted that A1. I was counting on it. And you can't blame me for pinning my hopes on English because there isn't anything else for me to count on. So that A2 was a real disappointment. I know, most people would be very pleased with such a grade but I just cannot bring myself to be sated. 74 is just one mark off. I'm feeling incredibly lousy now.

Also, I'd like to say that I'm sick, to anyone who's asking how I am. Some people thought that I was crying over my English grade today but I wasn't. I mean, it is upsetting and all but it's not the end of the world; I'll get over it, I will not mope. My throat is sore and my voice has turned all Aaron-Carter-esque nasal and I have a dry cough and all the water I drink goes straight out of my nose (bad mental image, I know) and I've used up four ten-packs of tissue already and I want so badly to go and sleep right now though I know I can't because I have to finish the 100 math sums, but other than that I'm perfectly fine.

Good night, now.